Non-Theistic Psalm no. 4: Composed 2018-02-21 in the afternoon.
A Psalm of Sophia recounting being driven from a long-time church at the start of gender transition.
Why have those I thought of as friends turned on me?
They say that the path I must take will lead to Hell.
At best they offer only contemptuous prayers for me
And ask that I go back to what I know was a lie.
Pesenting myself in the way I truly am
They insist makes a mockery of God.
But to go back to showing the face that they prescribe
I know will drive me to madness and to death.
But despite the way that they all turn against me,
I know that the truth is strongly on my side.
I have examined the evidence with strong scrutiny
And have eliminated all possibilities except one.
The path that I follow, it seems daunting indeed,
But I’m driven by the fact that I know there’s no other way.
I can’t be sure that if I follow this path then I will make it,
But I know that if I don’t go through with it I’m doomed.
Every step I take outside could very well be my last,
And I must take it without those I once thought I could count on.
Each step I’m uncertain of the best next move to make,
So I must calculate each move as well as I can.
Survival is uncertain, but fear I put behind me
As I know that on the path I tread I must go.
And I walk with confidnece so as to not stumble in fear,
For I know that it’s the path that I must go.
